Success or Die Trying
I pray that everyone had a fantastic weekend. This is the first weekend in a VERY long time that I didn’t work. I felt just SO weird. By Sunday night I was scratching at my own skin to do something. Even Jo was telling me that it’s good to relax. “Relax?” I thought. I’m never doing enough. It’s never enough. To me at least. I’m CONTASTLY doing something. Creating. Dreaming. Writing. Photography. I just can’t rest. With all the hopes of being the head photographer for Vogue, Elle, or Victoria’s Secret. I’m constantly building on my blog because I live and die for fashion. When I was younger my father and other people were convinced I was going to be a fashion designer. While I love designing I feel as though the House of McQueen has an invisible wire taped to my head because everything I fantasize in fashion they make. However, that’s neither here nor there. The point in writing this is that I don’t feel like I working hard enough. I TRULLY feel like I could be doing more to achieve my goals.
For that I have made MAJOR decisions for 2012. I am going on a ton of trips in the spring to different cities to promote my photography. I will be doing a lot of art festivals in major cities. So if you guys know any (ESPECIALLY IN THE SAN FRAN, LA, NEW YORK, SEATTLE, and MIAMI regions) please let me know. I have a site up right that you guys should check out. However, I am constantly growing my work.
I want to be the best. I want to do the best work. I want to know that I did EVERYTHING to accomplish my goals. So this is why I cannot sit down. This is why I’m constantly creating. I have to get this out of me. For the first time in a VERY long time I know what I want out of this life. I want to be great.