I know it may come as a surprise for people who don’t know me… but I am stupidly shy in person. The only time I am really outgoing is when I’m with a group of friends… or people I am just THAT comfortable around to just be me.
The other day my friend asked me to go bowling with him and his friends. I (a) I suck a bowling, and (b) I get anxiety meeting a GROUP of people whom I don’t know… and everyone else does. I propel myself in these situations because I need to get over this anxiety when it comes to meeting new people. Here’s the thing… if I go into a situation and nobody knows each other. I’m cool. However, if I go into a situation where I’m the odd man out that’s where the anxiety comes in.
I felt even more horrible on our way back home and my friend mentioned it. Like as soon as we got into the car. Just thinking about it right now brings me back that emotional state. *ugh* I honestly felt so bad because it is something I need to overcome. That fact that he mentioned it makes me feel like everyone thought I was anti-social.
In my defense it’s not like we were at a house party or a bar or a dinner table where I could have had face to face talking. We were spread apart. In all honestly, if we ever hang out again I would be calmer. The anxiety would still be there… but not as bad.
It’s always that initial meeting that turns on the anxiety.
Okay, so that was self deprecating. Here is what I wore bowling.
I was wondering what was off about my pictures… then I realized I forgot to put on my earrings from last night. Don’t worry…. They are in the last picture.
|Blazer: BCBG|Halter: Forever 21|Belt: Goodwill|Jeans: Charlotte Russe| Shoes: Aldo| Earrings: I always forget the creators|